[Even if they hadn't been connected by the threads, Jessie would have picked up on his anxiety. She likes to think she knows him well enough by now to know when something is bothering him. The thread just makes it all the stronger. Her fingers curl on the Deer's side for a moment, as she lets out a slow breath.
She turns, brow furrowed, real worry overtaking the rest of the emotional hurricane going on inside her for a brief moment.]
I know. I really appreciate that a whole lot. I just-
[She hugs her arms around herself, gaze dropping to the ground.]
I'm just. I'm scared that I'll end up hurting you. I could do something or say something that could cause some real damage and you don't deserve any of that. But I can't control it. [It's THERE, prickling at the back of her head constantly, and eventually, she knows she's going to snap and lash out at whoever happens to be nearest to her at the time.] Buzz, you're the most important thing in the whole world to me. The last thing I want to do is hurt you.
[Because a tiny part of her is still terrified that if she pushes him away hard enough, he'll just leave and she'll be stuck alone again. She knows, logically, it would never happen. You can't get more stalwart and true than Buzz Freaking Lightyear. But the fear remains all the same. Unfounded though it may be. ]
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Date: 2020-03-08 10:22 pm (UTC)She turns, brow furrowed, real worry overtaking the rest of the emotional hurricane going on inside her for a brief moment.]
I know. I really appreciate that a whole lot. I just-
[She hugs her arms around herself, gaze dropping to the ground.]
I'm just. I'm scared that I'll end up hurting you. I could do something or say something that could cause some real damage and you don't deserve any of that. But I can't control it. [It's THERE, prickling at the back of her head constantly, and eventually, she knows she's going to snap and lash out at whoever happens to be nearest to her at the time.] Buzz, you're the most important thing in the whole world to me. The last thing I want to do is hurt you.
[Because a tiny part of her is still terrified that if she pushes him away hard enough, he'll just leave and she'll be stuck alone again. She knows, logically, it would never happen. You can't get more stalwart and true than Buzz Freaking Lightyear. But the fear remains all the same. Unfounded though it may be. ]