I'm not going to press. He deserves to decide for himself if he needs more out of me. [A shrug.] Not everyone deserves to get their apology accepted.
Fair 'nuff... memories... memories... I used to be one girl, and then I allowed a guy with a lot of magic power change me into something called a nobody. I didn't remember being her, and now I had almost no emotions. So, when you guys met me, I had about as much empathy as a rock... and any emotions I was showing were probably kind of a sham, a show because I was used to expressing them but didn't feel them really.
Nobodies are almost all the "Bad Guys," not that I think that matters to me anymore. Aaaand we usually get our jollies off like some kid with a magnifying glass hovering over an ant hill, with you guys as ants.
So. I remembered being Elrena. I remembered being Larxene. I remembered going back to Elrena, then I remembered deciding to become Larxene again. And then I remembered dying a second time and getting both sets of memories all jumbled together. I remembered being here, and I remembered being hopped up on ADAM, which made me want to protect every kid I ever met from anything that came near them, and left me in pain non-stop for almost two months.
Which... lucky Buzz, he got to feel that pain for like a month and a half. Not my choice, but we got stuck with it. I felt his. he felt mine. Little bastard popped his arm out at one point. Oh man... that was such a fair shot. But fuck it hurt.
[Breathe. Right.]
So, I'm Larxene. I'm not Elrena. But I remember being her... and she wasn't always a bad person, and she cared, but ... apparently that was too much for her sometime and she kept following some guy who did this to himself over and over again. And so... I'm still a sadist. Believe me. It's still fun. It didn't stop being fun... but... maybe I'm just tired of always being the bad guy all the time.
Oh... and, uh... I might have known you guys were toys from the start. There's... uh... a world in my place where there's talking toys. One of the others got assigned it. I got assigned Elsa. But it might have been an 'other you.' Does that make sense?
CW Mentions of ADAM, Sadism, screwed up crap and a lotta pain. Lil 4th walling cause KH.
Fair 'nuff... memories... memories...
I used to be one girl, and then I allowed a guy with a lot of magic power change me into something called a nobody. I didn't remember being her, and now I had almost no emotions. So, when you guys met me, I had about as much empathy as a rock... and any emotions I was showing were probably kind of a sham, a show because I was used to expressing them but didn't feel them really.
Nobodies are almost all the "Bad Guys," not that I think that matters to me anymore. Aaaand we usually get our jollies off like some kid with a magnifying glass hovering over an ant hill, with you guys as ants.
So. I remembered being Elrena. I remembered being Larxene. I remembered going back to Elrena, then I remembered deciding to become Larxene again. And then I remembered dying a second time and getting both sets of memories all jumbled together. I remembered being here, and I remembered being hopped up on ADAM, which made me want to protect every kid I ever met from anything that came near them, and left me in pain non-stop for almost two months.
Which... lucky Buzz, he got to feel that pain for like a month and a half. Not my choice, but we got stuck with it. I felt his. he felt mine. Little bastard popped his arm out at one point. Oh man... that was such a fair shot. But fuck it hurt.
[Breathe. Right.]
So, I'm Larxene. I'm not Elrena. But I remember being her... and she wasn't always a bad person, and she cared, but ... apparently that was too much for her sometime and she kept following some guy who did this to himself over and over again. And so... I'm still a sadist. Believe me. It's still fun. It didn't stop being fun... but... maybe I'm just tired of always being the bad guy all the time.
Oh... and, uh... I might have known you guys were toys from the start. There's... uh... a world in my place where there's talking toys. One of the others got assigned it. I got assigned Elsa. But it might have been an 'other you.' Does that make sense?