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Offical Woody Complaint Box
On (INSERT DATE) Woody said (INSERT COMMENT) to (ME/MY FRIEND/SOMEONE ELSE) due to (LEAD UP TO INCIDENT) and he made me feel (BRIEF DESCRIPTION). I strongly suggest that he (INSERT PUNISHMENT) until he (POSSIBLE REPARATIONS).

FROM: SUBJECT: BUZZ Jessie, I think we should talk about Peter. BUZZ I think I'm ready. LARXENE Soooooooooo... ALICE Jessie, hi. It's Alice. MAUL I am not good at this sort of thing WILL if i tell people about it, it'll freak them out CHLOE hey it's chloe BUZZ There's a deer come to visit in the garden VENKMAN Strings BUZZ Found my Fluid MAMI A gift BUZZ doggopic.jpeg FERN dude! you and Buzz are dating? that's great BUZZ So...Woody asked me about what we were hiding from him. BUZZ Sorry. I'll be okay. BUZZ --Rex would be a real dinosaur?! THE DOCTOR Hello, this is The Doctor. Is this Jesse?

TO: SUBJECT: BUZZ Hey howdy hey RUBY Oh my god I found lemonade in the toaster this morning. SANA Howdy there. I um... wanted to apologise for when you last saw me VENKMAN I gotta keep this short because... VENKMAN Hey-howdy-hey. This is your afternoon check-up call... BUZZ I still don't know why we all go so many presents anyway. WOODY Hey. You around? To talk, I mean? BUZZ Mami fucking died

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[yodelling]

[It's a real Catch 22 that one. ]

Glad to be back.

[He's trying. The only reason she's able to type is because she's busy compartmentalising everything. It's fine. This is fine.]

Yeah trust me I'm gonna have to do a lot of that.
It's pretty bad.

On a rooftop?
I'm by the rollerskate place.
I can see it from here.
Couple buildings over.

[mrsnesbitt]

ccan you get dwon to ground lelvel

[lord typing and running is HARD]

wiat youre not hurt are you? ?? ill carry you back its fine
givem e 20

[yodelling]

Yeah, I can climb down.
I'm not hurt.
You don't need to carry me.

[She'll be parkouring her way down fro the rooftop, trying to push down a lot of very unpleasant memories, all clamouring for her attention. Jessie's never repressed her stuff half as much as she has since she came to Deerington. Suddenly being trapped alone in a box for three decades isn't the worst thing she's experienced and she honestly doesn't know how to handle that.

So she's gonna just... sit on the pavement and try not to think about it. It's fine, this is totally fine. ]

[mrsnesbitt]

[he... kind of wants to carry her anyway? he won't because she doesn't want it, but...

well, anyway, it takes him about 20 minutes to get there, as he'd said. buzz has obsessively studied the maps of this place and explored enough to generally know how long it takes to get around.

it takes absolutely every ounce of willpower for him to now scoop her up in a very tight hug the moment he spots her. the only reason he doesn't--]

Are-- are you okay for...? [he has his hands held out, clearly asking if she's okay to even be touched after her body was changed so dramatically against her will.]

[yodelling]

[Jessie will solve his dilemma for him. As soon as he gets near she's to her feet, racing into his arms. The hug gives is as tight and fierce as her bearhugs always are- but it's very much lacking in enthusiasm. It seems desperate, like clinging to driftwood in the ocean.

Give her a minute Buzz, she just needs to cling for the next forever. ]

[mrsnesbitt]

[well, hey, that's good to know. buzz wraps her up in his arms the best he can, hugging her tightly.

he so desperately wants to say "it's okay, you're safe now, it's over" but... he knows all 3 of those things would be lies.

damn it, sodder.

he settles on the one thing that wouldn't be a lie:] I've got you.

[yodelling]

[There are so many things she wants to talk about- a slew of half-remembered memories of the past month, sweeping through her mind like a fog. She can't bring them to the surface yet though- giving them a voice might make them real. So she clings a little tighter. ]

I want to go home. I'm done with this place.

[mrsnesbitt]

I know. I'm sorry.

[sorry for what? sorry he couldn't stop what happened to her? sorry he can't help more? sorry they can't go home? buzz isn't sure. it just hurts.]

Come on. We can go back to the townhouse.

[he's careful not to call that home, even if it's where the family is.]

[yodelling]

You don't have anything to be sorry about. You're not the one that turned into a giant death bird.

[Giving voice to it doesn't make her feel any better. Everything sucks. So badly. She appreciates the restraint. The family is there, but it's not home. Not right now. ]

...Yeah, okay. We should get out of here.

[In case they come across any dead townspeople that she for sure murdered.]

[mrsnesbitt]

[he nods silently-- there's nothing else to say, is there? she's right.

buzz guides her forward gently.]

It--it's not far. You can rest when we're back.

[yodelling]

[She heaves out a shuddery sigh, heading forwards, honestly largely walking on autopilot.]

In case you're wondering, turning organic is really weird and not comfortable at all. Solved that mystery for us.

[mrsnesbitt]

[that... just makes him think of running to the roof in panic, finding the bird, thinking she was dead and-- hrhrhrhgngh that static is coming back. come on, lightyear. get it together. she needs you...! now more than ever!]

...Guess it was too much to ask for warning. [he settles on, a little lamely.] You don't have to talk about what happened if you don't want to but... you know I'm here if you need to.

[yodelling]

I pretty much don't want to talk about it ever.

[She wants to put it all in a box, lock it and never take it out again. She offers him a fleeting smile. ]

I appreciate that, though. I know. I'm sorry for scaring you.

[Because even though her memories are fuzzy and not quite right, she knows he was there and it freaked him out. ]

[mrsnesbitt]

Okay.

[he hates that idea, even if repression is what buzz does best. he just worries-- he knows jessie has so much else that this will grate up against. buzz glances at her as he says that, the exact same look he would give her when woody was starting to spiral.]

Don't worry about me. Like you said, I'm not the one that-- yeah.

[yodelling]

[Jessie shakes her head softly, he sees that look and knows what it means. More to the point, she is worried about him, an awful lot. And that worry is helping her deflect her own brand of awful.]

I'm gonna worry regardless. I read your text messages. I know this hurt you, so do me a favour and don't pretend it didn't.

[The pot calling the kettle black maybe, but she's sticking to it. ]

[mrsnesbitt]

[he grimaces a little when she mentions the text messages. buzz doesn't entirely regret sending them; he meant it when he said he did it to stop himself losing his mind from the... you know, trauma, guilt, fear, grief. all those fun emotions.]

I won't, and I'm not. It's something I can deal with, Jessie. It wasn't your fault you changed-- I don't want to add to your stress.

I'm just worried about you, that's all.

[yodelling]

[She understands those emotions only too well, and the need to expunge them. Maybe not for this paricular problem, but she's usually a pretty solid advocate for sharing your feelings. ]

I'll be-

[She hesitates, stops in her walk- because it's one thing to bury this deep and another altogether to flat out lie to him. She's not fine, she's not going to be fine. ]

...I just need a little time, is all. But I need you to look after yourself. Because I really do love you, and I don't want to see you hurting.

[Even if there's nothing she can really do about that.]

[mrsnesbitt]

I will. I promise. We can look out for each other by looking out for ourselves, huh?

[he takes her hand gently as they make their way down the street. towards a place that... should be safe.]

Take as long as you need. Don't think you need to rush through this.

[yodelling]

...Okay. Yeah. Of course.

[She gives his hand a 'lil reassuring squeeze. ]

Thanks, I'll be on my feet before you know it. Just need some time to get my head back into place. Is everyone at the house okay?

[mrsnesbitt]

Don't rush it, [he says again.] it... if you can't get back on your feet after this or if you need all our help, then... that's fine. I know the ideal is that it would never have happened, but...

[he bites his lower lip, trailing off awkwardly.]

They're okay. I didn't tell them what happened. [he couldn't, as selfish as it makes him feel.] I can talk to them later, you don't have to be the one to do it. Sorry.

[yodelling]

I know, I know. Baby steps. I'll... have to work on it.

[She says that like she doesn't tackle everything head on all the damn time anyway. But this once... this once she might actually take this slower. It's an awful lot to process. She never thought she would top her trauma from being in the box. Now she has, she's not sure what she's supposed to do with it.

A tenseness eases from her shoulders at his answer. Good. Good.]

Thank you. I... I don't like keeping anything from them, but- [Jessie's prided herself on her honesty but this is a lot] I don't want to upset them.

[mrsnesbitt]

Yeah. I didn't think you'd want them to know, when it was avoidable.

[as much as part of it as buzz being literally unable to talk about what happened, he does like to think he knows jessie very well at this point. her not wanting them to know was something he figured from the start. he doesn't think it was right to not tell them, but he also knows it's not his call to make.]

It's not something you need to work out right now. If you need space, I can tell them. If they ask why, I'll say because you just do right now.

[yodelling]

It would have been a lot of them to handle.

[It's a lot for HIM to handle, a lot for her to handle. It's just a whole lot of...everything. She offers him a tired smile.]

...Thanks. I'd appreciated it if you did. [Again.] I just... I need to work through it in my own head.

[mrsnesbitt]

Maybe, but... remember. They have each other, and we have them.

[it's a lot for any one of them to handle, but together...? maybe it would be a little more palatable.]

I'll only mention it if it comes up. If you need to redirect them to me, feel free. I don't mind at all, as long as you're comfortable with me speaking on your behalf.

[yodelling]

Yeah, I know. We've got this.

[She sounds way less convincing than she wants to be.]

Of course, I am. I trust you, Buzz. [That, at least, is completely and utterly honest.] I know you'll be able to tell them, even if I can't figure out the right words for it.