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[personal profile] mrsnesbitt 2020-04-11 11:43 am (UTC)(link)
[he grimaces a little when she mentions the text messages. buzz doesn't entirely regret sending them; he meant it when he said he did it to stop himself losing his mind from the... you know, trauma, guilt, fear, grief. all those fun emotions.]

I won't, and I'm not. It's something I can deal with, Jessie. It wasn't your fault you changed-- I don't want to add to your stress.

I'm just worried about you, that's all.
Edited (didnt like how i worded it!!) 2020-04-11 11:56 (UTC)
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[personal profile] mrsnesbitt 2020-04-11 04:43 pm (UTC)(link)
I will. I promise. We can look out for each other by looking out for ourselves, huh?

[he takes her hand gently as they make their way down the street. towards a place that... should be safe.]

Take as long as you need. Don't think you need to rush through this.
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[personal profile] mrsnesbitt 2020-04-12 06:15 pm (UTC)(link)
Don't rush it, [he says again.] it... if you can't get back on your feet after this or if you need all our help, then... that's fine. I know the ideal is that it would never have happened, but...

[he bites his lower lip, trailing off awkwardly.]

They're okay. I didn't tell them what happened. [he couldn't, as selfish as it makes him feel.] I can talk to them later, you don't have to be the one to do it. Sorry.
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[personal profile] mrsnesbitt 2020-04-13 01:44 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah. I didn't think you'd want them to know, when it was avoidable.

[as much as part of it as buzz being literally unable to talk about what happened, he does like to think he knows jessie very well at this point. her not wanting them to know was something he figured from the start. he doesn't think it was right to not tell them, but he also knows it's not his call to make.]

It's not something you need to work out right now. If you need space, I can tell them. If they ask why, I'll say because you just do right now.
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[personal profile] mrsnesbitt 2020-04-13 05:46 pm (UTC)(link)
Maybe, but... remember. They have each other, and we have them.

[it's a lot for any one of them to handle, but together...? maybe it would be a little more palatable.]

I'll only mention it if it comes up. If you need to redirect them to me, feel free. I don't mind at all, as long as you're comfortable with me speaking on your behalf.
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[personal profile] mrsnesbitt 2020-04-14 01:35 pm (UTC)(link)
Can only really take it as it comes, can't we? I just-- want to make sure I don't make it worse by trying to help.

[he knows how that goes. hell, it's not like he managed to work out how to help her through her panic attacks without a few slip-ups. it's not easy when even jessie doesn't know what she needs to help-- not that any of them hold it against each other. toys are understanding of each other's traumas like that.]

...Bullseye will be happy to see you when we get back. It'll probably be nice to get that blanket around you and sit with him for a little while.
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[personal profile] mrsnesbitt 2020-04-15 02:41 pm (UTC)(link)
He's doing alright. [as much as he can be goes unsaid. buzz doesn't quite agree with the sentiment that he doesn't ever do anything wrong-- he knows a chunk of it is her not making him want to feel bad. he doesn't think the salts were a good idea and never will, no matter how much she affirms otherwise.

but... like jessie, buzz has no interest in upsetting her with feelings he can cope with himself. they have enough to deal with, right now. this isn't exactly like home where they can afford to talk through everything. somethings just... need to be left to the wind, he thinks. especially now, when she's been through something so terrible! their focus must remain topical and resolute, no matter how much it hurts!

when they get to the door step of their own home, buzz stops her before helping her up the step. you know what this has earned? a little kiss on the forehead. he has to get up on tippy toes to do it, but she gets a gentle little smooch as he holds both her hands for balance.]


I'll let you field his excitement while I go get your things. Do you want to stay downstairs for a little while or go right up?