survivalthroughhate: ([Comics 20] Yellow eyes)

[personal profile] survivalthroughhate 2020-05-16 11:50 pm (UTC)(link)
It is what it is. One cannot change the past.

[Though even today the marks of Sidious' treatment are still evident in his behavior.]

I must say you're acting much more pleasant then the first time we met.
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[personal profile] survivalthroughhate 2020-05-24 09:40 am (UTC)(link)
I have learned that regretting what one has gone through leads to nowhere.Yes.

[All it does it lead to places in Maul’s mind he would rather not think about.]

Apology accepted. I know what it is like to be in a permanent state of anger.
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[personal profile] survivalthroughhate 2020-05-29 05:28 am (UTC)(link)
Then you are fortunate. There are quite a few things
I would like to do over in my life.


[Long enough that they would make for quite the list if he wrote them all down.]

Of that, I have become most aware. The fireflies have been both a blessing and a curse.
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[personal profile] survivalthroughhate 2020-06-10 04:29 am (UTC)(link)
[It takes a while before Maul responds to Jessie's question. Was it really worth it in the end? Maul's not sure. Sometimes it seems like it was, and other times, not at all.]

If I ever figure out an answer to that question, I'll tell you.

Then you are stronger than me in that regards. I can't stay away. Seeing my family again is all I have wanted for so long.
survivalthroughhate: ([TCW 19] Meditative)

[personal profile] survivalthroughhate 2020-06-11 08:59 am (UTC)(link)
[That is such a startlingly clear view that Maul can hardly believe it's coming from a cowgirl ragdoll. He should know better than to underestimate people that come in unusual packages, but even now he's an old dog learning new tricks.]

You are a very articulate and wise being. That was very well put. May I ask how old you are? I assume a toy doesn't age the same way a normal human would.
survivalthroughhate: ([TCW 14] All too easy)

[personal profile] survivalthroughhate 2020-06-13 07:18 am (UTC)(link)
What a curious form of immortality. To be able to stay alive as everyone ages around you. I imagine there are as many advantages as disadvantages to such a state.

[That seems really old for a simple toy to have held up for so long, but then again, what did he know about how toys were made? It's not like he ever had any to judge by comparison.]
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[personal profile] survivalthroughhate 2020-08-25 07:26 am (UTC)(link)
I suppose being a toy, your purpose is at least clear cut. In my world, the Force supposedly guides us to our destinies, but sometimes, it is hard to see a pattern even with hindsight. I'm still not sure what the point of my life has been.
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[personal profile] survivalthroughhate 2020-08-29 11:23 pm (UTC)(link)
I know how that can be. I lost over ten years of my life being in such a state.

I thought for a long time that I had lost all those in my life who were like that. But perhaps that is why I was brought here. To find such people again.
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[personal profile] survivalthroughhate 2020-09-03 04:06 am (UTC)(link)
A box? That sounds like the worst sort of torture. You have my sympathies.

[Even Sidious had let his apprentice move around the facility on Mustafar as a child, despite all his distaste for doing so. He knew his small apprentice would wither and die if left in a single room all the time.]

Perhaps. But sometimes, for someone like me, happiness hurts.
survivalthroughhate: ([TCW 69] Depressed)

[personal profile] survivalthroughhate 2020-09-14 03:41 am (UTC)(link)
Sometimes. And other times, the pain that results when it is lost is far worse than it would have been had I never known it at all.
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[personal profile] survivalthroughhate 2020-09-15 08:42 am (UTC)(link)
I suppose I will simply have to see how long it will last this time.

[Much as he knows he shouldn't, Maul hopes that it might be longer than he thinks. He craves things like happiness and connections with people, despite not really knowing what to do with them once he has them.]