[Okay, that brings a small smile to her face, a genuine one. Because she'd very much like to get back and not have the house smell like rancid traitor bear. She moves, slipping her arm around his. Sorry, Space Ranger, hand-holding just won't cut it today, you're going to have to live with this. Try to not pass out.]
I'll sure as heck take that. And it would be nice to relax a 'lil. It's been a month.
[there is no reality in which he would not be okay with that. he lets her do so, miraculously doesn't pass out, and even threads his own plastic fingers through hers. nice. 10/10.]
That's... certainly one way to put it. [he exhales lightly, as they walk, still keeping as low key as they can.] I can't believe Woody had to deal with this on his own for a month on top of waking up just after the whole garbage tip thing.
[Good job, buddy. You levelled up in intimacy. She's so proud of you. She'll give his hand a little squeeze to show it. ]
Honestly, I don't blame him for being onery with every dang person he came across here. [Because Woody doesn't deal with stress well at the best of times and this was a deeply stressful situation.] How the heck he did it on his own, I don't even know.
No. Being completely alone here and surrounded by people he couldn't help... [buzz trails off uncomfortably. it really is a nightmare here, not so much just for woody, but for everyone. he has to wonder what those people he's heard mentioned that do like it here are like. what must their home situation be? buzz isn't naive enough to be unaware of things like that, but being faced directly with it... not fun. no toy wants to see a human suffer. hell, buzz literally let his metaphorical heart be pulled out and he doesn't doubt any other toy here would hesitate if they'd been in his situation.
this is the kind of stuff he's been thinking of since he got back from the whole mess with fern. laying face down on the bed.] Well... he's resilient. You saw how he was still going to come back to the RV when he thought he had to.
[not something he likes to think about, but relevant nonetheless, he thinks.]
Just gotta... remind him he doesn't have to do everything on his own... [and if that isn't an almost insurmountable challenge... mr lightyear does not sound too confident on that front. he's sure jessie remembers woody walking away from all their attempts to help before. even with bo here, he's all too aware last time they just got lucky. all this on top of lying by omission to him! whew.]
He's got a good heart, he wouldn't want anyone to suffer if he could help it.
[And it would have been agonising. Having to choose between following the rules and letting people suffer- or throwing every piece of toy instinct out of the window to help. She doesn't envy him.
Woody would pretty consistently pick other people's happiness over his own. As much as she hates the knowledge when they eventually go home, Woody won't be in their lives any more - she's glad he's found happiness there. That for once he put himself first. ]
...I saw. He- he did the right thing though. For himself. And Bo. In the end.Even if it means we don't get to be a part of that.
[She's going to miss him. And the old wounds of missing Bo are fresh again. But they can be happy now. They can make a real go of it. She's just endlessly glad Buzz is still around. She's pretty dang convinced she wouldn't have been able to face going back to Bonnie without him- new Sheriff responsibilities be damned.
She offers the tiniest of smiles. ]
Well. We just gotta keep poking at him on that one. Pretty sure I can at least evenly-stubborn him if he really digs his heels in. We'd get a stalemate on it if nothing else.
[Or they'd end up screaming at each other. That's the more likely scenario here when both of them have decided to argue separate sides of a point.]
We were part of it, and we still will be. Just as we won't forget him, he's not gonna forget us.
[that's what he tells himself. that's what he genuinely believes-- it's not a hope he doesn't put stock in that he's clinging to. it's one of those weird situations where doing the right thing hurt, and buzz hasn't even managed to fully process it given that he basically saw woody less than an hour after they'd parted for good. how are either of them meant to know how to deal with that when they had no chance to? hell, buzz hasn't even been separated from woody for more than a couple days at most since he came to life.
these are weird times, and woody isn't the only one buzz is worried about.] Do you... have any idea how Bo's handling it? I have no idea how to ask her.
[And that's the important distinction to make. Jessie knows for a cold hard fact that memories only take you so far. Nothing ever fills that void when someone is gone. But she knows that's just old ghosts nipping at her heels. It might be different this time. She just very much doubts it. But she's not about to trample on his optimism- lord knows one of them needs some for this mess. ]
Bo's... I don't reckon she's all that happy about it- but she'd never want to hurt him. [But this can't be easy for her, having JUST got him back to have him not quite right.] I think she's just keepin'- keepin' on. I can check in on her though. See how she's coping.
[Because Jessie will just... directly ask her with all the tact of a tossed house brick.]
[he falls silent at that. buzz knows that jessie understands this more than he ever could, simply through value of experience. he's keenly aware that he's never really... lost anyone as important as woody, even though it makes him feel a little guilty about the other toys that've been given away in the meantime. bo and RC leaving stung, of course, and being passed over by andy was a different kind of hurt but...]
No, she wouldn't be. [he says finally.] If you need backup... just ask.
[Jessie would have been happy for Buzz to never experience this kind of loss. He's always been so gosh-darn stalwart and she genuinely hopes when they eventually go back that he'll be okay. He told Woody that Bonnie would be okay, but what about himself? She's not so convinced. He and Woody have always been a set- and now suddenly they're not. She just hopes she can help him through that fact. ]
Thanks, I appreciate that. [A smile.] You've known her longer than me, I'm sure she'd appreciate your input on the whole thing too. I know I would.
[bo is a good friend, woody-centric topics prevailing or not. buzz still can't help but feel a little silly about expressing to her his hope for woody just seeing her being the thing to bring back his memories. it was naive, in hindsight. why would anything nice like that happen?]
Oh, there's... one more thing. About the heart thing. [he stops for a moment, tapping his helmet button to make it whoosh up. it's all in good order, except for a small, circular spiderweb of cracks on the side. quite clearly from an impact.] It's not too bad, but I'll want to avoid landing on my head again for a while...
[Oh, well. That's a mighty concerning development. Don't mind Jessie, Buzz- she's just gonna lean her hands on your shoulder to peer at the crack, judging it for exactly how much damage has been made there. She doesn't like it none- Buzz is the most robust out of all of them. If he's getting damaged? Well.]
How did that happen? Did the doctor drop you or something? Or did you do it while you were helping Fern?
[Buzz Lightyear please don't fall on your head. She squints at the damage again, before relenting and letting go of her death-grip on his shoulders.]
At least it doesn't look like it's got any holes in it. But...yeah, maybe avoid landing on your head for a while, agreed.
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Date: 2019-11-05 11:02 pm (UTC)I'll sure as heck take that. And it would be nice to relax a 'lil. It's been a month.
[Sweetie, honey, that's not how you say it.]
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Date: 2019-11-06 04:34 pm (UTC)That's... certainly one way to put it. [he exhales lightly, as they walk, still keeping as low key as they can.] I can't believe Woody had to deal with this on his own for a month on top of waking up just after the whole garbage tip thing.
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Date: 2019-11-06 07:17 pm (UTC)Honestly, I don't blame him for being onery with every dang person he came across here. [Because Woody doesn't deal with stress well at the best of times and this was a deeply stressful situation.] How the heck he did it on his own, I don't even know.
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Date: 2019-11-06 08:14 pm (UTC)this is the kind of stuff he's been thinking of since he got back from the whole mess with fern. laying face down on the bed.] Well... he's resilient. You saw how he was still going to come back to the RV when he thought he had to.
[not something he likes to think about, but relevant nonetheless, he thinks.]
Just gotta... remind him he doesn't have to do everything on his own... [and if that isn't an almost insurmountable challenge... mr lightyear does not sound too confident on that front. he's sure jessie remembers woody walking away from all their attempts to help before. even with bo here, he's all too aware last time they just got lucky. all this on top of lying by omission to him! whew.]
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Date: 2019-11-06 09:14 pm (UTC)[And it would have been agonising. Having to choose between following the rules and letting people suffer- or throwing every piece of toy instinct out of the window to help. She doesn't envy him.
Woody would pretty consistently pick other people's happiness over his own. As much as she hates the knowledge when they eventually go home, Woody won't be in their lives any more - she's glad he's found happiness there. That for once he put himself first. ]
...I saw. He- he did the right thing though. For himself. And Bo. In the end.Even if it means we don't get to be a part of that.
[She's going to miss him. And the old wounds of missing Bo are fresh again. But they can be happy now. They can make a real go of it. She's just endlessly glad Buzz is still around. She's pretty dang convinced she wouldn't have been able to face going back to Bonnie without him- new Sheriff responsibilities be damned.
She offers the tiniest of smiles. ]
Well. We just gotta keep poking at him on that one. Pretty sure I can at least evenly-stubborn him if he really digs his heels in. We'd get a stalemate on it if nothing else.
[Or they'd end up screaming at each other. That's the more likely scenario here when both of them have decided to argue separate sides of a point.]
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Date: 2019-11-07 07:24 pm (UTC)[that's what he tells himself. that's what he genuinely believes-- it's not a hope he doesn't put stock in that he's clinging to. it's one of those weird situations where doing the right thing hurt, and buzz hasn't even managed to fully process it given that he basically saw woody less than an hour after they'd parted for good. how are either of them meant to know how to deal with that when they had no chance to? hell, buzz hasn't even been separated from woody for more than a couple days at most since he came to life.
these are weird times, and woody isn't the only one buzz is worried about.] Do you... have any idea how Bo's handling it? I have no idea how to ask her.
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Date: 2019-11-07 07:56 pm (UTC)[And that's the important distinction to make. Jessie knows for a cold hard fact that memories only take you so far. Nothing ever fills that void when someone is gone. But she knows that's just old ghosts nipping at her heels. It might be different this time. She just very much doubts it. But she's not about to trample on his optimism- lord knows one of them needs some for this mess. ]
Bo's... I don't reckon she's all that happy about it- but she'd never want to hurt him. [But this can't be easy for her, having JUST got him back to have him not quite right.] I think she's just keepin'- keepin' on. I can check in on her though. See how she's coping.
[Because Jessie will just... directly ask her with all the tact of a tossed house brick.]
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Date: 2019-11-07 09:23 pm (UTC)No, she wouldn't be. [he says finally.] If you need backup... just ask.
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Date: 2019-11-09 12:32 am (UTC)Thanks, I appreciate that. [A smile.] You've known her longer than me, I'm sure she'd appreciate your input on the whole thing too. I know I would.
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Date: 2019-11-09 04:39 pm (UTC)[bo is a good friend, woody-centric topics prevailing or not. buzz still can't help but feel a little silly about expressing to her his hope for woody just seeing her being the thing to bring back his memories. it was naive, in hindsight. why would anything nice like that happen?]
Oh, there's... one more thing. About the heart thing. [he stops for a moment, tapping his helmet button to make it whoosh up. it's all in good order, except for a small, circular spiderweb of cracks on the side. quite clearly from an impact.] It's not too bad, but I'll want to avoid landing on my head again for a while...
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Date: 2019-11-09 06:55 pm (UTC)How did that happen? Did the doctor drop you or something? Or did you do it while you were helping Fern?
[Buzz Lightyear please don't fall on your head. She squints at the damage again, before relenting and letting go of her death-grip on his shoulders.]
At least it doesn't look like it's got any holes in it. But...yeah, maybe avoid landing on your head for a while, agreed.
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Date: 2019-11-09 07:26 pm (UTC)[it probably would've been worse if he hadn't been able to somewhat mitigate the impact with a sweet flip.]
I'll make sure it won't spread. Maybe get some tape on it.
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Date: 2019-11-10 12:48 am (UTC)[Thank god for the sweet flips. ]
Maybe we can get some resin for it or... something. If it gets bad. We'll figure something out.