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cawaiiNo. Being completely alone here and surrounded by people he couldn't help... [buzz trails off uncomfortably. it really is a nightmare here, not so much just for woody, but for everyone. he has to wonder what those people he's heard mentioned that do like it here are like. what must their home situation be? buzz isn't naive enough to be unaware of things like that, but being faced directly with it... not fun. no toy wants to see a human suffer. hell, buzz literally let his metaphorical heart be pulled out and he doesn't doubt any other toy here would hesitate if they'd been in his situation.
this is the kind of stuff he's been thinking of since he got back from the whole mess with fern. laying face down on the bed.] Well... he's resilient. You saw how he was still going to come back to the RV when he thought he had to.
[not something he likes to think about, but relevant nonetheless, he thinks.]
Just gotta... remind him he doesn't have to do everything on his own... [and if that isn't an almost insurmountable challenge... mr lightyear does not sound too confident on that front. he's sure jessie remembers woody walking away from all their attempts to help before. even with bo here, he's all too aware last time they just got lucky. all this on top of lying by omission to him! whew.]
this is the kind of stuff he's been thinking of since he got back from the whole mess with fern. laying face down on the bed.] Well... he's resilient. You saw how he was still going to come back to the RV when he thought he had to.
[not something he likes to think about, but relevant nonetheless, he thinks.]
Just gotta... remind him he doesn't have to do everything on his own... [and if that isn't an almost insurmountable challenge... mr lightyear does not sound too confident on that front. he's sure jessie remembers woody walking away from all their attempts to help before. even with bo here, he's all too aware last time they just got lucky. all this on top of lying by omission to him! whew.]
Edited 2019-11-06 20:16 (UTC)
He's got a good heart, he wouldn't want anyone to suffer if he could help it.
[And it would have been agonising. Having to choose between following the rules and letting people suffer- or throwing every piece of toy instinct out of the window to help. She doesn't envy him.
Woody would pretty consistently pick other people's happiness over his own. As much as she hates the knowledge when they eventually go home, Woody won't be in their lives any more - she's glad he's found happiness there. That for once he put himself first. ]
...I saw. He- he did the right thing though. For himself. And Bo. In the end.Even if it means we don't get to be a part of that.
[She's going to miss him. And the old wounds of missing Bo are fresh again. But they can be happy now. They can make a real go of it. She's just endlessly glad Buzz is still around. She's pretty dang convinced she wouldn't have been able to face going back to Bonnie without him- new Sheriff responsibilities be damned.
She offers the tiniest of smiles. ]
Well. We just gotta keep poking at him on that one. Pretty sure I can at least evenly-stubborn him if he really digs his heels in. We'd get a stalemate on it if nothing else.
[Or they'd end up screaming at each other. That's the more likely scenario here when both of them have decided to argue separate sides of a point.]
[And it would have been agonising. Having to choose between following the rules and letting people suffer- or throwing every piece of toy instinct out of the window to help. She doesn't envy him.
Woody would pretty consistently pick other people's happiness over his own. As much as she hates the knowledge when they eventually go home, Woody won't be in their lives any more - she's glad he's found happiness there. That for once he put himself first. ]
...I saw. He- he did the right thing though. For himself. And Bo. In the end.Even if it means we don't get to be a part of that.
[She's going to miss him. And the old wounds of missing Bo are fresh again. But they can be happy now. They can make a real go of it. She's just endlessly glad Buzz is still around. She's pretty dang convinced she wouldn't have been able to face going back to Bonnie without him- new Sheriff responsibilities be damned.
She offers the tiniest of smiles. ]
Well. We just gotta keep poking at him on that one. Pretty sure I can at least evenly-stubborn him if he really digs his heels in. We'd get a stalemate on it if nothing else.
[Or they'd end up screaming at each other. That's the more likely scenario here when both of them have decided to argue separate sides of a point.]
We were part of it, and we still will be. Just as we won't forget him, he's not gonna forget us.
[that's what he tells himself. that's what he genuinely believes-- it's not a hope he doesn't put stock in that he's clinging to. it's one of those weird situations where doing the right thing hurt, and buzz hasn't even managed to fully process it given that he basically saw woody less than an hour after they'd parted for good. how are either of them meant to know how to deal with that when they had no chance to? hell, buzz hasn't even been separated from woody for more than a couple days at most since he came to life.
these are weird times, and woody isn't the only one buzz is worried about.] Do you... have any idea how Bo's handling it? I have no idea how to ask her.
[that's what he tells himself. that's what he genuinely believes-- it's not a hope he doesn't put stock in that he's clinging to. it's one of those weird situations where doing the right thing hurt, and buzz hasn't even managed to fully process it given that he basically saw woody less than an hour after they'd parted for good. how are either of them meant to know how to deal with that when they had no chance to? hell, buzz hasn't even been separated from woody for more than a couple days at most since he came to life.
these are weird times, and woody isn't the only one buzz is worried about.] Do you... have any idea how Bo's handling it? I have no idea how to ask her.
We don't get to be there, though.
[And that's the important distinction to make. Jessie knows for a cold hard fact that memories only take you so far. Nothing ever fills that void when someone is gone. But she knows that's just old ghosts nipping at her heels. It might be different this time. She just very much doubts it. But she's not about to trample on his optimism- lord knows one of them needs some for this mess. ]
Bo's... I don't reckon she's all that happy about it- but she'd never want to hurt him. [But this can't be easy for her, having JUST got him back to have him not quite right.] I think she's just keepin'- keepin' on. I can check in on her though. See how she's coping.
[Because Jessie will just... directly ask her with all the tact of a tossed house brick.]
[And that's the important distinction to make. Jessie knows for a cold hard fact that memories only take you so far. Nothing ever fills that void when someone is gone. But she knows that's just old ghosts nipping at her heels. It might be different this time. She just very much doubts it. But she's not about to trample on his optimism- lord knows one of them needs some for this mess. ]
Bo's... I don't reckon she's all that happy about it- but she'd never want to hurt him. [But this can't be easy for her, having JUST got him back to have him not quite right.] I think she's just keepin'- keepin' on. I can check in on her though. See how she's coping.
[Because Jessie will just... directly ask her with all the tact of a tossed house brick.]
[he falls silent at that. buzz knows that jessie understands this more than he ever could, simply through value of experience. he's keenly aware that he's never really... lost anyone as important as woody, even though it makes him feel a little guilty about the other toys that've been given away in the meantime. bo and RC leaving stung, of course, and being passed over by andy was a different kind of hurt but...]
No, she wouldn't be. [he says finally.] If you need backup... just ask.
No, she wouldn't be. [he says finally.] If you need backup... just ask.
[Jessie would have been happy for Buzz to never experience this kind of loss. He's always been so gosh-darn stalwart and she genuinely hopes when they eventually go back that he'll be okay. He told Woody that Bonnie would be okay, but what about himself? She's not so convinced. He and Woody have always been a set- and now suddenly they're not. She just hopes she can help him through that fact. ]
Thanks, I appreciate that. [A smile.] You've known her longer than me, I'm sure she'd appreciate your input on the whole thing too. I know I would.
Thanks, I appreciate that. [A smile.] You've known her longer than me, I'm sure she'd appreciate your input on the whole thing too. I know I would.
Yeah. I'll try.
[bo is a good friend, woody-centric topics prevailing or not. buzz still can't help but feel a little silly about expressing to her his hope for woody just seeing her being the thing to bring back his memories. it was naive, in hindsight. why would anything nice like that happen?]
Oh, there's... one more thing. About the heart thing. [he stops for a moment, tapping his helmet button to make it whoosh up. it's all in good order, except for a small, circular spiderweb of cracks on the side. quite clearly from an impact.] It's not too bad, but I'll want to avoid landing on my head again for a while...
[bo is a good friend, woody-centric topics prevailing or not. buzz still can't help but feel a little silly about expressing to her his hope for woody just seeing her being the thing to bring back his memories. it was naive, in hindsight. why would anything nice like that happen?]
Oh, there's... one more thing. About the heart thing. [he stops for a moment, tapping his helmet button to make it whoosh up. it's all in good order, except for a small, circular spiderweb of cracks on the side. quite clearly from an impact.] It's not too bad, but I'll want to avoid landing on my head again for a while...
[Oh, well. That's a mighty concerning development. Don't mind Jessie, Buzz- she's just gonna lean her hands on your shoulder to peer at the crack, judging it for exactly how much damage has been made there. She doesn't like it none- Buzz is the most robust out of all of them. If he's getting damaged? Well.]
How did that happen? Did the doctor drop you or something? Or did you do it while you were helping Fern?
[Buzz Lightyear please don't fall on your head. She squints at the damage again, before relenting and letting go of her death-grip on his shoulders.]
At least it doesn't look like it's got any holes in it. But...yeah, maybe avoid landing on your head for a while, agreed.
How did that happen? Did the doctor drop you or something? Or did you do it while you were helping Fern?
[Buzz Lightyear please don't fall on your head. She squints at the damage again, before relenting and letting go of her death-grip on his shoulders.]
At least it doesn't look like it's got any holes in it. But...yeah, maybe avoid landing on your head for a while, agreed.
With Fern. When I got him out the door of the... place the cure took us I got... ejected. Quite a bit more violently than I expected.
[it probably would've been worse if he hadn't been able to somewhat mitigate the impact with a sweet flip.]
I'll make sure it won't spread. Maybe get some tape on it.
[it probably would've been worse if he hadn't been able to somewhat mitigate the impact with a sweet flip.]
I'll make sure it won't spread. Maybe get some tape on it.
[jessie might've noticed that mr lightyear has not been very present for the last couple of days. that is because he's been laying in the mud somewhere. feelings suck, actually.]
So...
Woody asked me about what we were hiding from him.
So...
Woody asked me about what we were hiding from him.
Yes. Sorry.
If it means anything, becoming one with the mud has helped. Even if I'll need to sit under the tap for three hours to feel clean again.
He saw Bonnie's name on the bottom of my boot.
I'll be honest,
It could've gone better.
If it means anything, becoming one with the mud has helped. Even if I'll need to sit under the tap for three hours to feel clean again.
He saw Bonnie's name on the bottom of my boot.
I'll be honest,
It could've gone better.
Momentarily. There are a lot of puddles that are quite a bit deeper than they look. So look out for that.
I've been busy being productive, [looking for batteries, actually. he knows he's getting low.] don't worry. It's not that bad.
Neither of us did.
Bo didn't think to say to hide it either.
Even then... I don't think I'd want to scratch off Bonnie's name for that.
[it's-- it's a thing. maybe he picked up on that thing woody does sometimes where he looks at the name to remind himself they have someone. something he does here, specifically, to try and make sure he's not losing his damn mind.]
I'll need to talk to him again to know for sure.
There was no way he could understand why he made the choice he made. I knew that before I even told him. It's partly why I didn't tell him when it was just us two.
Frankly, I think I'd be even more worried if Woody accepted it without issue.
I did essentially tell him he's a lost toy by choice.
I've been busy being productive, [looking for batteries, actually. he knows he's getting low.] don't worry. It's not that bad.
Neither of us did.
Bo didn't think to say to hide it either.
Even then... I don't think I'd want to scratch off Bonnie's name for that.
[it's-- it's a thing. maybe he picked up on that thing woody does sometimes where he looks at the name to remind himself they have someone. something he does here, specifically, to try and make sure he's not losing his damn mind.]
I'll need to talk to him again to know for sure.
There was no way he could understand why he made the choice he made. I knew that before I even told him. It's partly why I didn't tell him when it was just us two.
Frankly, I think I'd be even more worried if Woody accepted it without issue.
I did essentially tell him he's a lost toy by choice.
Out of curiosity.
Do you ever think I actually believe you when you tell me 'it's not that bad'?
Or do you just keep trying hoping that this time I'll buy it?
Because I don't.
Every time.
And of course not. The name's important.
To her and you.
Shows you belong somewhere to someone.
[Which... admittedly has always been a harder thing to trust implicitly for her. But Bonnie... well, she's something else.]
I guess that makes sense.
He is pretty loyal above everything else.
Not so good at imagining he can do anything for himself.
That'd take time to get his head around.
Espeically if he didn't experience the past year.
Do you ever think I actually believe you when you tell me 'it's not that bad'?
Or do you just keep trying hoping that this time I'll buy it?
Because I don't.
Every time.
And of course not. The name's important.
To her and you.
Shows you belong somewhere to someone.
[Which... admittedly has always been a harder thing to trust implicitly for her. But Bonnie... well, she's something else.]
I guess that makes sense.
He is pretty loyal above everything else.
Not so good at imagining he can do anything for himself.
That'd take time to get his head around.
Espeically if he didn't experience the past year.
Honestly, for the last couple months I've been saying it for myself.
"Oh, it's just a couple mutilated corpses. That's not so bad. Oh, looking at the moon makes people crazy now. Okay. That's fine. Transported to a different realm of reality within someone else's brain? Sure, why not."
You know how it goes.
I did my best to tell him it was a good thing for him, but I think that's where I went wrong.
Like telling him how he should feel about his own future instead of letting him work it out himself.
I don't know. I don't think there's etiquette for it?
[there's a pause.]
I feel like a bad friend. Most of all.
"Oh, it's just a couple mutilated corpses. That's not so bad. Oh, looking at the moon makes people crazy now. Okay. That's fine. Transported to a different realm of reality within someone else's brain? Sure, why not."
You know how it goes.
I did my best to tell him it was a good thing for him, but I think that's where I went wrong.
Like telling him how he should feel about his own future instead of letting him work it out himself.
I don't know. I don't think there's etiquette for it?
[there's a pause.]
I feel like a bad friend. Most of all.
I guess that's fair.
I don't really do that repression thing so well.
But if it helps you get by in this place I can't blame you for that.
I don't think there IS etiquette for telling your friend he's a year in the past to everyone else.
I'd be real concerned if there was.
Hey. No. You're not a bad friend.
You're one of the best friends anyone could ask for.
You have been for as long as I've known you.
You did your best and this ain't exactly a regular thing to deal with.
You're not a bad friend for trying to help him with this.
I don't really do that repression thing so well.
But if it helps you get by in this place I can't blame you for that.
I don't think there IS etiquette for telling your friend he's a year in the past to everyone else.
I'd be real concerned if there was.
Hey. No. You're not a bad friend.
You're one of the best friends anyone could ask for.
You have been for as long as I've known you.
You did your best and this ain't exactly a regular thing to deal with.
You're not a bad friend for trying to help him with this.
I don't think it's actually good to do.
The pillows in the spare room are good to scream into. Good thread count for it.
[it is literally impossible to tell if he's being serious, at this point.]
I know, you're right.
It's just hard not to feel crappy when I know he's unhappy because of what I told him, even if it was unavoidable.
He doesn't know about the badge you have, for what it's worth.
The pillows in the spare room are good to scream into. Good thread count for it.
[it is literally impossible to tell if he's being serious, at this point.]
I know, you're right.
It's just hard not to feel crappy when I know he's unhappy because of what I told him, even if it was unavoidable.
He doesn't know about the badge you have, for what it's worth.
OH NO BUZZ HOW COULD YOU?!!
That was almost a whole swear!!!
But it's okay I won't call the Swear Police on you.
I'll harbour you like the swear fugitive you are.
Go on the lamb with you and everything.
While some Whitney Huston song plays in the background.
That was almost a whole swear!!!
But it's okay I won't call the Swear Police on you.
I'll harbour you like the swear fugitive you are.
Go on the lamb with you and everything.
While some Whitney Huston song plays in the background.
[Sorry, she had to get it out of her system. She's cool now. She's cool.]
Anyhoo.
I tend to do my screaming sans pillows anyway.
Though punching them helps sometimes!
All we can do now is be here for him when he's ready to talk about it.
He probably needs to process it.
It's A LOT to take in one sitting.
This'll just take time, is all.
Thanks for not telling him about the badge.
Anyhoo.
I tend to do my screaming sans pillows anyway.
Though punching them helps sometimes!
All we can do now is be here for him when he's ready to talk about it.
He probably needs to process it.
It's A LOT to take in one sitting.
This'll just take time, is all.
Thanks for not telling him about the badge.
You know, I could probably throw together something that can take some punishment.
Balloon full of cornstarch, or something. Double bag it. Draw Lotso's face on it.
...Though if it starts talking then I'm officially checking out.
While I'm not sure if we ever should've kept what happened a secret from him, I know for certain that some things are better left unsaid for now.
If he's going to find out about that, he deserves to hear it because the new Sheriff herself decided to tell him. Not because her dumb spaceman suffered a severe case of verbal slippage.
[he is so close to not even commenting on her CYBERBULLYING.]
I might have a whole one if things get even more complicated.
Balloon full of cornstarch, or something. Double bag it. Draw Lotso's face on it.
...Though if it starts talking then I'm officially checking out.
While I'm not sure if we ever should've kept what happened a secret from him, I know for certain that some things are better left unsaid for now.
If he's going to find out about that, he deserves to hear it because the new Sheriff herself decided to tell him. Not because her dumb spaceman suffered a severe case of verbal slippage.
[he is so close to not even commenting on her CYBERBULLYING.]
I might have a whole one if things get even more complicated.
Yes please!
I'd very much like to punch something with Lotso's face on it.
Also yeah. I think I'm about done with inanimate objects coming to life now.
[And then they'll go home and in a year there will be KNIFEY.]
Well, the new Sheriff really appreciates her spaceman managing to keep his verbal slippage to a minimum on that one.
I'll... figure out a way to tell him eventually.
Maybe once things have calmed down a little.
[She does it out of love WOW.]
I wouldn't blame you if you did.
This place is a mess and it sure ain't letting up.
I'd very much like to punch something with Lotso's face on it.
Also yeah. I think I'm about done with inanimate objects coming to life now.
[And then they'll go home and in a year there will be KNIFEY.]
Well, the new Sheriff really appreciates her spaceman managing to keep his verbal slippage to a minimum on that one.
I'll... figure out a way to tell him eventually.
Maybe once things have calmed down a little.
[She does it out of love WOW.]
I wouldn't blame you if you did.
This place is a mess and it sure ain't letting up.
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