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[personal profile] mrsnesbitt 2019-11-17 12:34 pm (UTC)(link)
[jessie might've noticed that mr lightyear has not been very present for the last couple of days. that is because he's been laying in the mud somewhere. feelings suck, actually.]

So...
Woody asked me about what we were hiding from him.
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[personal profile] mrsnesbitt 2019-11-17 03:12 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes. Sorry.
If it means anything, becoming one with the mud has helped. Even if I'll need to sit under the tap for three hours to feel clean again.

He saw Bonnie's name on the bottom of my boot.
I'll be honest,

It could've gone better.
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[personal profile] mrsnesbitt 2019-11-17 04:18 pm (UTC)(link)
Momentarily. There are a lot of puddles that are quite a bit deeper than they look. So look out for that.
I've been busy being productive,
[looking for batteries, actually. he knows he's getting low.] don't worry. It's not that bad.

Neither of us did.
Bo didn't think to say to hide it either.
Even then... I don't think I'd want to scratch off Bonnie's name for that.


[it's-- it's a thing. maybe he picked up on that thing woody does sometimes where he looks at the name to remind himself they have someone. something he does here, specifically, to try and make sure he's not losing his damn mind.]

I'll need to talk to him again to know for sure.
There was no way he could understand why he made the choice he made. I knew that before I even told him. It's partly why I didn't tell him when it was just us two.
Frankly, I think I'd be even more worried if Woody accepted it without issue.
I did essentially tell him he's a lost toy by choice.
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[personal profile] mrsnesbitt 2019-11-17 05:07 pm (UTC)(link)
Honestly, for the last couple months I've been saying it for myself.
"Oh, it's just a couple mutilated corpses. That's not so bad. Oh, looking at the moon makes people crazy now. Okay. That's fine. Transported to a different realm of reality within someone else's brain? Sure, why not."
You know how it goes.

I did my best to tell him it was a good thing for him, but I think that's where I went wrong.
Like telling him how he should feel about his own future instead of letting him work it out himself.
I don't know. I don't think there's etiquette for it?


[there's a pause.]

I feel like a bad friend. Most of all.
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[personal profile] mrsnesbitt 2019-11-17 06:38 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't think it's actually good to do.
The pillows in the spare room are good to scream into. Good thread count for it.


[it is literally impossible to tell if he's being serious, at this point.]

I know, you're right.
It's just hard not to feel crappy when I know he's unhappy because of what I told him, even if it was unavoidable.
He doesn't know about the badge you have, for what it's worth.
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[personal profile] mrsnesbitt 2019-11-17 06:38 pm (UTC)(link)
*Bad
Feel bad.
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[personal profile] mrsnesbitt 2019-11-17 08:28 pm (UTC)(link)
You know, I could probably throw together something that can take some punishment.
Balloon full of cornstarch, or something. Double bag it. Draw Lotso's face on it.

...Though if it starts talking then I'm officially checking out.

While I'm not sure if we ever should've kept what happened a secret from him, I know for certain that some things are better left unsaid for now.
If he's going to find out about that, he deserves to hear it because the new Sheriff herself decided to tell him. Not because her dumb spaceman suffered a severe case of verbal slippage.


[he is so close to not even commenting on her CYBERBULLYING.]

I might have a whole one if things get even more complicated.
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[personal profile] mrsnesbitt 2019-11-17 10:05 pm (UTC)(link)
Noted.
I'll get what we need them come back.

You don't have to tell him at all. I hope you know that's an option.
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[personal profile] mrsnesbitt 2019-11-18 08:24 pm (UTC)(link)
Of course.
Do whatever you need to. You know I'll support you.